i am always so dead when it comes to killer jaw.

FEEL SO ULTIMATE THROW FACE NOW. i wantttttttt toooooo die!

i REALLY wonder where/how ALL MY BAD LUCKS (ok, i know it is never plural) accumulated from.

suay, suay-ed, and still suay-ing to the max. everyday.

i am pretty sure it isn't bad karma, unless you count the (very) evil thoughts in my mind from time to time... but hey! i shut my lips tight and do nothing kae. i am behaving well.

yesterday, i even directed an old man to somewhere he wanted to go... using my ultimate-broken hokkien. see, i am nice. WHERES MY GOOD KARMA?!

or maybe the old man got lost because of me. he must have cursed me then...

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

This holiday I...


... embarked on an absolute non-exciting working life. A behind the desk job. Nothing imaginative, just don't get caught dozing off. Opportunities are given generously and soon I shook off staples, hole puncher, paperclips which were practically hanging from me in the first week, real human communications begin then. I met great successful people, and surprisingly, they are also the nicest. IQ and EQ really come in pair.

Boot Licker: WOW. Nice shirt!
First VP enters and smirks.
Office Lady: (let out a snort) Hur... makes him looks like a playboy.
First VP: (turns around, hands on tt OL) Oh really? Where are we heading tonight then?


... became a workaholic, or was it a cow? An normal week duty consists of 5 working days and 6 tuition sessions. Randomly, I have worked through 2 IT fairs and 1 event, in all, making up 10 days. I feel stupid to be a slave for $ sign, giving up bimbotic time with gfriends. Worst, all these sacrificial are paid at indecently low per hour rate. I am such a cow.


... had a getaway, like what holiday is truly meant for! BKK is finally strike off from the list, but definitely a must to return.


... exercised. The 10km Singapore Bay Run was really something for me.


... ran out of luck, unless you count bad-luck in too. Other than the result-less state that I landed myself in, I scorn at my other mishaps. You can officially call my number for help if you, contracted urinary tract infection, struck by sudden stiff neck, and recently added - food poisoning. I can pretty much explain and tell you what to do in layman's terms, just in case you get as hysteric as I did.


... been told of butterfly tales, which makes me wonder when I will stop reading and start living. He spells Life so differently, though not exactly correctly.


... am still a spinster. Ah ha, I am getting giddy with all the spinning.


I am bidding goodbye to this little short break with zero emotion. BYE! (' w ' )

I am bloody angry at myself.

For believing words of SUMI. For depending on the VERY screwed up system. For taking things way too easy. For laughing with people at my results-less state. For WAITING and NOT doing anything to find out how screwed the situation I am in.

(Note: calling & flooding emails = NOT doing anything. Because things just END there.)

I decided that being nasty, getting hysteric, pressing the matter real hard, isnt gonna get the problem anywhere near solved. But I am SO WRONG.

I should have reacted violently days ago.

ME HATE ME. I totally blame it on myself.

I almost forgot that swallowing tears causes that much pain.

Of cos, not literally licking off stupid salty tears. (Yes, everytime i cry, i cry so much that know it tastes so, and till it becomes bland as i lose my senses.)

If you have ever tried so hard to hold back your tears, and especially angry tears, you will know how much it burns your throat.

I am really boiling mad at myself. I regard this as the worst emotion, since I have been alone more than ever.

I want to scream!

oh man, im all in love with Edward again, the name. like how it begins with E then d, w, a, r, and lastly d. the spelling and how it sounds. it must be the no.1 boy name i really like.

of cos, im quite poisoned by Twilight. i kept reading and i couldnt stop. though i think only the dark romance part is very intriguing. some parts were disappointing. im a lil old for the for-youth story, anyway.

(with me working like a cow, im thankful for the me-time i have. reading is quite a luxury now.)

a part of me jumps for the comingsoon movie. but... that Edward isnt quite near to the Edward i had in mind. perfection isnt the same for everyone. and also, the whole crew looks unfamilar. but again, i dont even know who i am anticipating (not as if i really know of any ang mo actors/actresses to fit them into my mind as i read). i really like those unknowns whom i have pictured though, all of them together.

(i dig wikipedia. shoots. i just found out the film release of Half-Blood Prince is pushed back cos of Twilight? eh, gay. HP should really come first. favourited fantasyyyyy~)

i still cant quite get over Edward.

suddenly, i dont mind being ghostly white.

hah. i need the next book.

this is what i see.

followed by 4 big fat blue boxes at the bottom. thought of many possibilities for this and ended up with just one conclusion: I am a sui suay char bo!

or maybe they should just place O$P$ big and bloody red at the very front page of my portal so i know it is my failure of payment that leads to the withheld of my results.

i really have zero idea what is happening. (sound very familar hur. What Happened?)

for now, i can only flood poor Sumi (programme executive) with emails and bomb her phone. my thoughts are swimming very (very very) wildly.

/rawr

so not exciting.

Got sick of colours. :(

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