M-Y T-H-O-U-G-H-T-S
there you go. but human mind is never that simple.
thinking back, i was quite a crazy woman. throughout the relationship, 'breaking up' is constantly up in my head. not that it is a decision, but i worry/think about whenwhatwhyhow about it. (at least, 'who' isnt in the question, i know it is gonna be me and that unlucky fellow la.) i dont know why, but i never see 'happily ever after' as an option. perhaps, we were never that happy to begin with. but that is not the point, and neither "i am a lousy lover." the thing is; i am a worrywart.
the better the thing goes, the wilder my thoughts
it is more likely that i will bring along an umbrella on an ultra sunny day, as compared to any normal day. not that i am obsessed with my ghostly white complexion, but i just dont wish to be caught in a rain, despite it being least expected. i tend to be more cautious, when things are seemingly perfect. good thing being, i am prepared for a slump. bad thing being, worries precedes all and nothing turns out good. and so, im pretty doom for a slump!
pessimism is a killer. it discourages, strays, wets, and in my opinion, it is pessimism that sucks you to the centre of the earth. i must have weigh 1000kg then.
okay, i think i am still a crazy woman. :O!