like... i dont know i dont know i dont know!
i just want to meet up with my girlfriends. i need my input of sweet sinful food and nonsensical romance movies.
once again, i think i am messing up my... already-very-much-messed-up-life. letting people down and shutting people out. like how difficult it is to apologise when you already know it is your mistake, and you are at fault? silence is not always golden. how difficult is it to tell another someone that you are really upset... and you have no idea what you can do anymore?
and worst, words dont come out from your mouth the way you want.
at times like this, i miss pouring my emotions out to you. because you knew how to dry my tears the way i needed.
but forget about never ever. so, i choose to cover everything with silly looks and lies. believe it or not, i never want my life to be such a joke to people.
nevermind.
and i dont know why... seems like i am giving up on my POA. i feel so much like a total disappointment.