hello, i should be happy that i can still tabtab here. other than croaking away. all because of all the excessive talkings i did yesterday and today.
i dont know how you define the worst emotion, or what. for now, i feel accused. and to make it the worse, accused by the people you should trust / be trusted most. you feel so bad that you feel like running off, just to make sure they dont see your tears.
on top of that, i feel i am always labelled "never good enough" by them. i thought the least they should be glad about is me being independent. earning dollars through hardwork, and not just easy money of smile-and-pose job. paying for my own expenses. even friends-time is sacrificed. though i changed a phone, which you think is luxurious or wad, but the fact is i earned a profit after all the trouble i did to get discount and fetch N70's best price. i tried hard not to make money an issue. washing quite a portion of my own clothes. popping in pills like now, on my own, cos i am ill and i am never to complain. but, all i remind them of is me falling short in my academic. and so i had to enrol into sim. i am a burden to the family, and nothing else.
you know? i have no idea who to turn to, if i am even to be left behind... in the family.
tonight must be the worst night ever.