i wonder if i even deserve this little break i have given myself today.
i hate it when i am being forced to grow up. hmm... or maybe i should say, behave like my actual age. i admit i dont act like i am 19 most of the time. being the youngest in the family, i dont find the need to. but now... i really have to think alot more.
i am so afraid to make another wrong move. it is like a slippery slope. you just keep falling after that... and everything else.
i should cherish all the time i have now, while i can still look out of the window; picturing fluffy clouds as lovely shapes and things as they float across the sky so blue. but in the future, to me, time will only equate to money.
love ones will still be love, like always(: be it a physical thing, a new interest i have picked up recently, or a life long passion. i will grab tight to everyone and everything next to me now.
happiness is indeed a choice.
my friends touched me~~~<3 \(*v*)/
ps. i really love you alot daddy. please clear your mind and be with me. nobody falls behind in the family, you will be more than alright.