life is going to be so much better~
so much so that i can smell freshness in the air! the heart does feel a little lighter as the mind gets clearer.
i am not putting up a strong front, though i have a very strong tendency to, but just not this time. when everything just gets way too bad, there is no use to even put up this defensive image, it will just tired you out further. the only way is ; to get over it.
i was on my desperate end and told a silly bobo last night, what if i cant get over him? my whole life is going to be so gone case. yea, i didnt say that based on nothing. the fact is, i have never forgotten or given up on him before after much heart wrenching fruitless tries.
then, a few hours into the late night. something dawned onto me. maybe i just have to thank you for your acts and your words, though unspoken, i understand them and you, they made things much easier for me. i am moving forward.
for the moment, i felt being squashed so badly inside. yea and then i started to do something crazy... which i am supposed to do long ago. yea, now they are all gone.
my tears dont even mean a thing to you. even a kid who barely knows the truth of life came to offer me a hug. who are you?
everyone loves to love you. so, just count me out.
i am okay being alone. (BUT FRIENDS DONT LEAVE ME KAE!!! wuu wuu wuu uuu~ =b) at least i know the next one coming into my life, will be much appreciated. i will still provide best for him, rush down to wherever he is when he needs me, stuff him with rubbish food, take care of his disability if hes ever injured, beat him up like no tomorrow in a massage session.
on a happier note, my face is getting less round x)
cheers.