i will forget about you.
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have been busy trying to make myself busy(:
work has been quite fulfilling recently, which just simply means i really have something to work on! no matter it is editting text, cropping pictures or entering datas... yep, i am more than willing to do more of those, rather than staring into the computer screen ; b o r i n g ~ ~ ~
have been like a crazy bobo trying to get bobos to go out with.
stayed over at bobo's house for crazy Wii session. goodness! it was really crazy~ the amazing technology scared me quite a little though. i was perspiring while boxing bobo and bobo up! and it was extremely funny to take a step back and watch bobos playing retarded games. yea, i could not rest, it was so laughter inducing, laughing so hard that i could feel my stomach being squashed up. Wii Wii Wii, i love you! but yea, the aftermath was lotsaaa muscle achesss~~~
went for a little retail therapy with (the now 19 years old) bobo on saturday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALISTA! 0=) we shall shine through The Lost World =b yea, the bobo was very cute, at the end of the day she told me, "now i know why you are left with no money at the end of the month." oh yes, so true. wahahaha. but yea, buying things helped me to feel a little better. haha. what a bobo excuse!
but it is nothing compared to the company i have gotten from my friends these few days(:
i finally had a morning breakfast out with My family on sunday. oh my my. whens the last time we went out together in the early morning?! it was really early and we had dim sum. ate and talked. my brother and i started to act really silly again. haha, but he won. i got tired and fell asleep on the table =b
later in the noon, went to a poor bobo's house to watch vcds. we gotta accompany each other. and yea, so sorry but got to admit that... the main purpose was to get someone by my side to watch the charity show with me. wahakaka~ i was exposed when she asked me since when you so enthu about watching this kind of show?
it is time to learn to be a better daughter and friend.
i am very guilty for being so held up in my own world... trying very hard to get what i want. trying way too hard i supposed. somethings are never meant to be... i tied the string too tight. i suffocated him and at the same time, made myself so miserable.
when people said that you have changed, dont react negatively... there must be a reason why they said so. finally, after so many that kind of sentences, i took a step back to see who i really am. and yes, i have changed. MY FACE USED TO BE THINNER! MY CHEEKBONES USED TO BE HIGH AND THEY EXISTED! wahaha~~~ nah, i used to be nicer and lovable. but ya, where have all these gone?
find find find... gotta find all these back myself.
but i do find myself losing a little more and more things... unknowingly. like... WHERES MY CUP IN THE OFFICE?! i keep misplacing things... like i thought i was holding on to that min chiam kueh, newspaper, umbrella on (different) that day... then where they disappeared to as i walked? think i dropped them on the streets... people must be thinking i am littering =/ yes, very absent minded.
ohyes. and i slimmed down. appetite is going from bad to worst... and have bad stomache ever since that day. ho ho ho, i sound terribly emo but ya, i am worried for myself too.
so much so... i better take good care of myself.
most of us are blessed with good health, appreciate it.
though i am not, i have choosen to try to handle this myself. when reality fails to meet expectation, disappointment kills. i have got to understand, only family members stay with you by your side through thick and thin. so, lets not risk and pull anyone else with you, when you are going down.
shamelessly, i still cant get over anything.
but yes,
give me a little more time, i will forget about you.
dopiest jiaminjiamin