wanyan, i guess the ride up did not last me enough.
gravity sucks everyone down. to the core.
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i wonder if anyone ever cry so much out of a sudden.
again, i felt tears welling up in my eyes, then overflow. again, i ran to the toilet. again, i had to squat down to hug myself. again, i had to silent myself. again, i had to calm my breathing.
again, i felt beyond helplessness.
if i tell you what is happening, you will be gone for sure.
but this time, i did not even mouth a single word (to you, to everyone). as much as i dont want to receive an expected reaction, i dont want you to feel that i am troubling you.
i never want to be.
something is wrong. but i dont want to know exactly what. because i know i cant handle.
if you are thinking that i am upset over my failure to keep my love by my side, maybe you should start to realise what is life about. life is about life.
shouldnt you start to worry if you might not even be able to live to see the sun the next day.
i dont need a checkup.
-this post is not by jiamin. believe it or not.