we went on a holiday to somewhere. i didnt know why, but she was there as well. we played and enjoyed while she was there looking at us, that made you conscious to not look so happy with me...
i heard her crying to her pal during the quiet night, when you were already sound asleep beside me. it hitted me so hard that i could hear myself cracking inside.
i could only remember that i left you a note in the morning saying, "dearest, go ahead and be with ********..."
i continued to walk aimlessly in the resort till you finally found me. i smiled and explained why i have to leave. you didnt understand, neither did you say anything to hold me back. though you held me in your arms but that aint enough.
i placed my left hand on your head and messed up your hair a little. like what i always do, i tried to feel for your ear. tears fell this time. "baby, can i not say goodbye...", i whispered into your ear.
"we will never say...". your soft words filled my mind.
despite all, i knew i have to leave. and i saw her shadows in the background.
then i woke up in tears again.
bits and pieces of another disturbed sleep.
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