runaway runaway runaway. i cant believe that i burst out crying at my desk. i cant believe i had to run to the toilet. i cant believe i lost strength and fell to the floor. i cant believe i had to use my hand over my mouth to silent my crys. i cant believe my eyes swell so badly. i cant believe i cant even breath properly. i cant believe i was that stuck at the toilet for minutes.
i cant believe i cant stop.
i cant believe i lost control of myself.
i want to go, i want to go.
i want to leave my workplace,
but i have no where to go.
except home,
but i have no thing to do.
except sleep,
but that cant last me for long.
today will be a blog excessive day, because i have no one.
sometime ago, i thought i will die in an accident. cos i always end up dashing out of the road whenever i want to escape from the sight of a cat.
but now, i know how exactly i will die.
suicide.
im not suprised.