i continued to sit there and hang a smile on my face. pretending pretending pretending. she kept looking across, at me, who wasnt having the ball. i am not totally clueless but i hope i am not reading too much into her actions. and her eyes.
let me be left. i have been right almost everytime. about you.
and please, i beg the bees to stop stealing nectar from the flower.
i cant afford to lose.
but i can never do anything
to keep you by my side.
i hope i am still someone good. to you.
you were able to sense my signals of helplessness in my words. i sent out neutral words and im just glad for the fast reply. at least, it makes me feel less lonely and actually noted, in the cold night.
then i knocked out in my bed.