chinese new year tomorrow and that makes today chu xi.
i am always looking at new start for some hope for changes. it is like some good ocassion/chance for excuses to be made, like... "oh, i will change *some stupid habit* of me in the pig year!"and blah. it brings too much hopes.
an excuse to spurge too. shopping maddness. everyone is way too concern to beautify themselves. what a boost to the economy.
oh yep. anyway. i have been jobless for a week and nah, not looking around for one. i dont know what im thinking. somehow, i dont see the need to earn and i really appreciate the free time i have now. one word to sum it up; lazybum.
i am blogging very randomly. there is this very crazy girl whom i dont like. please go away ='( i feel like doing something to make me feel better off but no, i will tape my mouth and tie my hands. i will not react. keep my cool and pray hard...
sheesh =/
sigh. have you tried to silence yourself so much that you really felt the difficulty in breathing? cny... it is for everyone to get really cheery~ and ya, like what ive said, bring new hopes.
that is why you know you cant afford create any trouble/problem for others.
what if you found something worrying about your physical but you cant tell anyone. at least not in this kindof festive season. there isnt only one issue... there is still another one which i have not told you about. and i think there is a need to do something about it. i dont know. i need a doctor.
choi. but what if something happened to your partner... will you stay right through with him/her? like what if she becomes blind or lame one day? will you still be there? or get another one of your liking?
guess no one wants a burden. it is kindof saddening to know how cruel reality is. imagine some mishap happen to you, it is already bad enough. but the consequence attached is even heavier. losing people, who arent blood-related to you. ya, they just dont have the responsibility to take care of you and so they can choose to leave.
somehow. maybe a relationship means having trust in your partner that he/she will stay the way you like her/him to be.
any changes... people leave.
i hope i will be alright.
let me indulge in some hopes and wishes for the coming new year 0=)