yea. somehow im too tired by those intangibles in life.
love, satisfaction, contentment...
didnt you realise that none can be fulfilled? then why is everybody so siao in trying to be loved, satisfied and contented? how self deceiving.
humans are complicated creatures. or more likely, very selfish ones. everyone wants the best for themself. how can there be no loser in a game? cruel. we are actually hurting each other so much as we try so hard to achieve something for ourselves.
it is just a generalisation. not referring to any aspect of my dull life.
in anyway, dull is good. it equates to simple which again, equate to something good in my point of view.
just quite upsetting to see how people around me are trying so hard (which includes giving up principles of life) in getting something, which doesnt worth much.
i wish i am not one.
but the line is blurred, i think i am falling into it.
some fingers may be pointing at me. for being sucha workaholic and ya, something else.
job = money (tangible)
i am not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. i guess it is just some cheap metal. but im not complaining. at least it is usable, isnt it? ha... so i work to support myself. i am officially on my own for my expenses. till my next level of education comes in, i think.
talked to chongchong yesterday. i think we both grew up, and are still growing up.
anyway, work hard, shop hard~ (i still cant believe that the both of us gave up dinner for shopping!)
J: eh... you haven eat hor?
C: eh... nope. u too?
J: yep. and i think by the time we shop finish, those food place close liao.
C: ya...
(totally distracted by everything in topshop)
C: BUT by the time we eat finish, all shops close liao!
C & J: wahhh... CANNOT! shop first shop first~
haha. deprived ladies!
another matter.
if anyone was to ask me how much i love you.
lets just say, i am willing to die for you.
like in drama, how the (supporting) female actress uses her body to block off the gun bullet for the main actor. it doesnt matter even if she is only a supporting actress... though she is going to be forgotten after death and the mains are just gonna be together in the end.
because the only thought in that situation is that,
she wants him to live.
love is simple.
it is supposed to be a one-to-one function.
neither do i want it...
tell me that i will not be disappointed again.
ps. despite all, i feel happy (: